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There's going to be no shortcuts, this time.

In order for things to go back to as close to normalcy as possible, this has to continue. This could take a few months, or a couple of years...or even forever. But void of any external sentiments, I shall do it. I shall wait.

I know this has become way too late. A lot has happened already. The damage has been done. I regret letting this go on for years. This is what pride and depression does to someone-- it makes him so impulsive and assuming of things. It also made me believe in things when I shouldn't have. I've hurt you way more than what you could possibly handle, and I've hurt you way more than I ever did others. I have broken my promises, and let myself indulge in the things that you repeatedly told me not to.

I must admit: I couldn't help myself, especially when being subjected into that strength of a "pull". There are lots of minor things that contributed to the loosening of my grip. But hear me out: That's not the only reason I'm sticking around. I never stayed only so that I could argue with you time and time again (although that's what exactly happened.) I never enjoyed quarreling with you. It's just that sometimes, there are things that needs to be said, and the unwanted side effect is that feelings are getting hurt.) Going back to that deadly combination of pride and depression, it seemed that I made delusions that what I did would made things better for us. Obviously, it didn't.

It's very saddening that it had to be this way, especially when there's a lot of reasons for it not to be. We shared lots of good memories, and a a handful of bad ones. But I guess that time for reminiscing has long passed. It's already been done. The best thing to do is to (hopefully) make-up, and move on.

I'm very sorry, dude.

I hope that you're okay. I really hope that things could go a little bit more smoother for us, and for ourselves. Again, I couldn't blame you if you still feel angry at me. I just want you to know that even if we're not on friendlier terms anymore, I still care for you. At the end of the day, I still consider you as my friend, and I person very special to me.Hopefully someday, we'll be able to face each other and have ourselves some conversation over some good food (CB. S., hehe).

I don't think I could vividly express what's on my mind here. As you know, writing isn't exactly my thing.

See you around. I miss you.